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hmmm... everyone around me is getting ill... !!!
Grandma was feeling sick this morning.
constipation, bowel discomforts and nauseous.
so i had to go to the pharmacy to get her medicine and cook lunch.
can't go visit Joshua so early today,
have to stay home and accompany Grandma in case of anything.
Joshua's Mum is watching over him so i don't have to worry too much.
just that he will miss me, not eat more or drink more fluids... urgh.

time is pretty tight today.
have to stay home accompany Grandma, rush to SGH to visit Josh,
rush back home for dinner and attend Mass tonight.
Joshua is not coming home for Christmas. his bloodcount dropped to 63.
not a good sign... they're not gonna discharge him anytime soon!
it's gonna be a few days more... probably another 5 days in there... yucks!
let's pray that he makes it back for my birthday then! next Thursday it is.

i am not worrying too much about him now, but have to accompany him everyday.
although it's tiring to do so, i enjoy doing it.
it makes me feel good when i see him cheer up, eat and crack jokes.
it means that he's getting better. i love him.
thanks to all those friends who have been sending him well wishes,
i will convey your messages to him.
thanks to friends who have been praying for him.
i will do my best and God will take care of the rest.
May Our Lord hear our prayers, His will and not ours be done.
Blessed are His sheeps who come to Him.

i was supposed to attend an extended-family dinner tonight.
annual family tradition.... but the thing is this... this year it's at my grand-aunt's place at 6th Ave...
old grand-aunt ans her skinny sister doesn't like me coz she doesn't like my Mum...
she doesn't like Mummy coz Mummy is Thai. (so what even she's Thai? she's respectable!)
Mummy never offended her in any way also... i just think it's a warped logic.
and i don't really like her anyway...
she's never been nice to me since i was an innocent child of 4 years old...
so i am not turning up for this year's dinner =)
just gonna stay home with Grandma, dinner while watching tv and attend Church after that.

yes... i know. as a Catholic, i should be gracious. not to hold grudges against those who sinned against me. let love and peace fill the gaps between us.
well, i do not hate her or anything. i don't blame her either.
whenever i see her at Ah-mah's house, i still greet her.
but my point is this, i don't see why i should turn up for a dinner which makes me feel very uncomfortable. i am not obligated to do so. i'm nice enough to be cordial with her and that's all.

i'm feeling okay generally. just a bit tired. but will be okay after taking a day's of rest.
a new year is coming! in a week or so?
and yes.... results will be out tomorrow. that really sucks!
what a spoiler for Christmas and New Year! heck! not gonna check it anytime soon =P
so don't bug me about how did i do for this exams. lala~

what do i want for Christmas... hmmm... apart from Joshua getting well...
i don't really want any thing in particular for Christmas...
maybe the SAME wish i offer every year.
that...
1. i won't lose faith in God, pray without cease, attend Mass and continue to thrive in fellowship with my fellow Catholic brothers and sisters. may God bless me with strength (body and soul) and courage to do accomplish my mission.
2. my family will stick around together in understanding and patience. may the Holy Spirit fill our hearts with love and thanksgiving.
let God reward us as we due deserve and not let evil and harm come our away.
3. rejoice in the spirit of Advent everyday. remind us of the coming of Christ.

if u are really asking about that thing i want for Christmas and/or birthday...
then it will be...

a driving license! time i should get my ass into the driving school and take lessons.
lemme say this: i wanna drive a hydrogen-fuel powered car! no fossil fuels thank you!

or maybe a trip to Perth! i miss eating fresh strawberries, ripened by the summer sun!
spend an afternoon at a sidewalk cafe at Fremantle market sipping coffee.
i'll be wearing my linen top... environmentally friendly material.

or a diving trip to Sipadan. i miss scuba diving, swimming beside the sea turtle, admiring colorful sea anemones and sea ferns and relaxing under the palm tress after a dive.
it's beautiful. that's all the more a good reason why we should stop mass-consumption and polluting our environment. plastic are a hazard to sea turtle, fishing nets trap dolphins.
and all these industrial gaseous and liquid effluents are greenhouse in nature, the every 0.1deg celsius increment in temperature kills the reproduction of corals...

i have enough of clothes... (favourite color to wear is black).
i don't like fluffy toys. (they collect dust!)
i have a pretty good mountain bike but yet to wash and pump air into tyres.
(that's my 10 year old prsent k!)
i have wonderful close friends to love and be loved.
i have a queen-sized bed and my room is quite comfy. nothing's falling apart (as yet).

seriously...
i just want to spend time with my family. go on a trip together or stay at home together for a week.
my both parents are overseas. i only see my Mum once a year, i see my Dad once on 4-5mths...
i miss my parents being around. i miss my dog which passed away in 1999.
he's such a sweet darling. he's very affectionate, understanding and loyal.

Merry Christmas my dear friends!
May Our Lord watch over you, blessing your days with love, peace and joy!

posted by Veen @ 14:27